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My 500 Go Westen Digital hard drive just let me down! There is nothing more I can do. 7000 song, 100 & some movies, complete seasons of Nip/tuck, House MD, CSI & Prison Break, thousand of pictures, papers, resumés and a business Plan I'm struggling to finish... all gone!!!

3 month ago someone hacked into my ebay & hotmail account. I had to freeze my bank account, go days without credit card & I felt the same exact way! my whole life is/depends on this computer & it's not good!

It's time I go back to watching cable tv, buying cds & using a phone that just make phone calls.

btw I'm willing to pay anybody who will bring back all my files. I don't feel like downloading all these songs all over again. & even if I do, it won't be the same :(

 

This is Verdine from Earth, Wind & Fire fyi :o :D

I've seen this story last week. And I think everybody should see this. I am not American, but I care about people. I can't believe basic human rights are denied just for a war that is just serving the interest of an handful of people.

Seeing a representative of state talking about a dead person like he's just a number lost in files is terrible for the family & frightening for anybody who left a relative participate to that war.

What you should do is make a list of the most important reforms your country needs & force the candidates Democrat or Republican, because at this point it doesn't matter, to make engagements on applying them. It will take a lot of will & determination to do it, but you have to. You have the chance to vote for a new government. Don't let them just decide on what they will do of the country, you decide!

You tell them economy for the majority of American is not about shares, markets, oil prices. It's about getting a job, starting a business, being able to pay bills & have a relatively happy life. You tell them your own life & safety worth more than the safety of some country in the middle east & that your military force is not about a unit supposed to fight for a freedom that doesn't even exist . soldiers are human, just because they die in a region in war & come back in a casket, glorified by important people means their family will stop crying.

Do something! Don't just sit & watch. It is sickening for me to watch your country invade other countries, care for other countries wealth, security & education more than they care for you.

DO SOMETHING PLEASE!!

2 months ago I decided to tackle my trust issues with men & read Elina Furman's bestseller Kiss and Run.

A week later I was dating some guy I promised to have a drink with a year ago. It was my first date in a year & although we had no problem chatting over the Internet all night long, we didn't share more than 5 sentences in an hour. A week later we've had an early morning walk between St Michel & Chatelet . & on our third date we went to the movie. The film was horrible, our conversation was still poor & I realized I did not know his name after a year of Internet chatting & 3 dates. I know I'm wrong for that, but at least I did not have to introduce him to anybody.

So as I went back to thinking that I didn't have to go through dreadful dates, when I was happy being single, my friend gave me the number of a guy who just arrived in Paris so I could help him find a job & be familiar with everything. The real intention was of course to put us together. She insisted on how cute & adorable he was & how we would get along. So I met the guy a week ago. He is cute indeed & we've had a nice moment... & BREAKING NEWS!!! I DO LIKE HIM. I find him nothing wrong . usually there is always something I don't like, but he seems perfect to me. There must be subliminal messages in this book intended to break into the defense system of every proud single woman . 

*sigh* I'm totally falling for him & I want to know what he thinks about me . this is the first time I'm actually so self conscious about the quality of my conversation. I spend the night & the day after wondering if I didn't talk too much, if I didn't sound too intellectual or too stupid, or if I didn't laugh too much . did he like the place I took him to?

Yesterday for instance, I was supposed to pick a book at a library, meet with the author & get a signature. So I

 proposed we meet from there & then we go have a drink. Turned out the author was supposed to make a full length presentation about subway maps around the world (Disaster!!!!). We were all sitting there with our glasses of wine & water, listening to that guy & wondering why on earth he thought about writing a book exclusively on metro maps!  finally it became interesting (I don't know how exactly). I learned there were people redrawing maps for fun & other stuff. My date found the presentation interesting. What a relief! Then we ended the evening in a Starbucks coffee shop talking about everything. 

 

 

 

 

I'm impatient, he is shy, so even if there is something, he will never say anything. I have to bite my tongue just not to say something stupid like: " say you love me, you would like to start a relationship, kiss me or do something & let's get over with it!" or "the clock is ticking, Valentine's day is coming & there is this $200 pair of limited edition of Ray Ban I would love to offer to someone ."
I think he likes me or he's just too nice... in all the case, I prayed really hard last night that he be totally in love with me. I even promised to never be mean with any guy ever again (a pretty serious commitment). It was a deep prayer, followed by a session of auto-suggestion . I kept repeating that I always had what I wanted one way or another & that I would have him one way or another.
See, I'm losing all sense of rationality & suddenly, I don't think Susan from The Desperate Housewives is as nut as she seems to be.

                                                                                

 I'm between excitement & fear of rejection, which is not a bad thing I guess. Few months ago I was still in my fortress, protecting my feelings like my life depended on it. Now it scares me to see how disoriented I am when I am not in control.  

so the question is, how do you make one cute, interesting shy guy to express his feelings without you having to guess, even after just 2 weeks?

What was your major or field of study in college? Did you wind up working in that field or using that degree? If not, what field have you wound up in? 
Submitted by sneuf. 

When people ask me what I'm studying & I say "International relations... it's politics, diplomacy actually." they are like: "Niiiiiice!". When I add that I'm going to be a business woman to make a loooot of money & that I have no hope for the future of humanity, they are like "wtf!"

My major is definitely useful. I understand better than others politics, what makes the world go around, how to take advantage of situations. Unfortunately, I no longer dream about the beautiful world where everybody is happy with the black, white, asians children holding hands. I don't want to be protesting all my life, I'd rather do something I like & have fun.

Here's my response to Patricia Volonaki's questions.

 I found the post touching by the way.

 

1) Have you ever experienced a very intense, unresolved love situation? A love that you wish you could revisit, just to tell the other person what you're still thinking, feeling? For example, do you have any grown children, a parent, or a sibling, perhaps, with whom you wish you had a closer or better  relationship? What about a former spouse or lover? A former friend? 

My mother and I have never been close & my father has been buying our affection forever. I have no idea of what it is like to be best friend with your parents & I’ve kind of given up on getting closer to my parents now. No matter how much I’ve tried to force a casual conversation with my mother, she always kept her distance. It sounds weird, but yeah, she does protect herself from something. I assume it’s her authority. That’s the only  relationship we have anyway. Whenever she talks to me, it’s to give instruction. & no joke, our conversation in one day fits in 5 sentences . In the morning she wakes me up, ask me to buy bread on my way back from school. Then in the evening, she asks if anybody called & later she tells me there are letters to mail. As far as my dad is concerned, he orders feelings. He wants affection, when he barely says hello the time he calls. Once a month he complaints about getting no attention from anybody. 2 days later, he sends money, then he acts nice again. When complaining is not enough, he sends more money to my brother who returns the favor by calling & being nice. THEN while complaining about me not showing love to him, he brings the brothers who care more about him than I do. I don’t know what’s worse, him thinking his money really buys nice words or my brothers taking advantage of him.

Did I mention me & my brothers barely talk. I don’t talk to my young brother who doesn’t talk to my younger brother.

Communication is not the best asset in our family & I don’t even wish it was different. I used to, but now I just don’t care.  I don’t blame anybody, though I’m sure Freud would’ve had a lot to say about my commitment phobia linked to the lack of communication in my family.

Of course I would have loved to have a “normal” family, with more sincerity & less fear, but I’m sure I could get that if I start my own family. So no regret.

 

4) Have you ever met a person online, through a blog, chatroom or website, with whom you’ve become very close? (A non-romantic relationship, that is.)

I’ve met someone through a friend, on MSN a year ago. We’ve never met, but it’s a detail I forget because we could spend 5 hours chatting laughing & discussing politics. I didn’t even thought we would be friends. I usually dump the guys who add me on MSN after few minutes because we have nothing to say or they are interested in flirting with me. I value this friendship, when I know I see less people like him, who are not ultimately playing games just to date me.

There was also this guy I used to talk to through a message board. I had no problem opening totally myself to him.  These kind of relationship worth much more than a “real” relationship with school mates or girls. I came to realize the people I didn’t know well enough were more able to take me seriously & be more insightful than my other friends, who always put everything as being the cause of a bad day. 

 

 

What's your musical horoscope?  (Put your player on shuffle and write down the first 10 songs that come up.) 

 

 

 

1. Keiko Matsui - Forever Forever

2. Janis Joplin - Bye Bye Baby

3. Aaliyah - Don't Know What To Tell You

4. Zero 7 - Give It Away

5. Otis Redding - Sitting On The Dock Of The Bay

6. Goldfrapp - Let's Get Physical

7. Stacey Kent & Jim Tomlinson - So Nice

8. Philipe Monteiro - N'Cre Ser

9. Emilie Simon - All Is White

10. Charlotte Gainsbourg - Little Monsters

 

Alicia Keys done did it again! As I Am is the soundtrack of any woman. My opinion might be biased because I'm a fan, but this album is a pearl! It's personal, touching, soulful, it's all about love.

The first reviewed I've read about the album were not that positif (probably because they came from young junk music fans *cough*beyoncerihannaciarasomeidiotrappersmediawhorewithnosubstance*cough*). But I guarentee you will love it. If not, just send a complain message to my mailbox :D

My only regret is that one of her songs I'm completely addicted to , Hurt So Bad, is not on the album. It has this old vibe. But thank you to the internet!

 

 

 

 

 

  100 days, 100 nights by Sharon Jones and The Dap-Kings, both Daptone Records artists, is another amazing album that takes us back to the 60s. Obviously I'm too young to know what living in the 60s looks like, but you know what I mean.

FYI, The Dap-Kings is the band playing for Amy Winehouse.

 I urge you to buy this album. & if you have access to Canal+, do everything you can to catch her private live. It came out last week, so I'm not sure they'll have more re-runs.

 

 Much love. Have a nice and safe day.